Feeling some type of way!!!!!!

I'm feeling very overwhelmed today to much is going on in such little time. Sometimes I wonder why things have to end up this way but what can you do be strong and hold your head up. 

Well here it goes beauty's and friends and fam I am going through a rough path my mom have breast canser. I feel like my world has been turned upside down now. Yes I am crying as I write this because a lot of good things has happen in these past few years. One we and my mom never had a good relationship. She never cared bout me because of what my father had done to her in the past. So I had to pay for it. I never knew what a hug from my mother or a kiss felt like when I was a kid. I always felt like a adopted kid. I mean I couldn't even look at her in the dining table because I would get smack. Yes that's how bad it was, and as I got older we had no respect for each other. We would curse at each other and then some. But to make the story short a few years ago we kinda started to talk and she finally said sorry for what she had done to me as a kid. She then admit it was wrong to treat me in such ways because it was not my fault what my dad had done to her. I get it I look like him, I even smile like him. But it's been a year in half now, and we have gotten so close that we do a lot of things together. We even talk to each other like best friends. We are there for each other. Until the sudden new that we just found out she has breast cancer. Lord knows how much I luv her this is killing me. Now that we have gotten close she might die on me. Wao is all I can say. I've seen many similar stories on breast cancer and they all have a sad ending. The ? I ask myself is why me. Why now that we are happy and have gotten closer things like this happens. All I want to say is I am the only child so I have no one to talk this through and is a situation that is killing me. My mom is my everything to me my friend my mom my partner in crime and then some.this is a sad situation I feel like I am drowning. And I can't get up. She went to surgery and they took out the tumor, but now they saying that it spread all over her breast this is overwhelming me. They said she would be ok. They said she would be on treatment for a couple of years so that the tumor won't come back.but he we go again we receive this letter that states that it has spread and now I feel like I am loosing the one person that gave me life and now that I feel like I have a mother in my life. She might be taken from me. Dame this is hard for me to take. I always had everything while I was growing up with her, but not her luv or compassion or affection because of what my dad did to her. But now that I have it I feel like it's sleeping away. Lord help me this is killing me inside. I feel like I have to let it out because I feel like I am dying inside. I luv my mom more then many think and I will always be there for her through her worst moments as well. Thanks for reading this and I would like to here from you guys .

This is me and my mom Carmen 

First impression on a lush product name fun what a softy product its limited edition!!!!!

This product smells amazing. It also feels like playdo seriously. It can be use as a shampoo,bubbles and soap. The color is cold with glitter but the glitter those not transfer to your body. We tested this product in the bath meaning I made a video with my son on this product.mainly because he bought it he Luvs the color gold and he Luvs bubbles. I also use a small nice and cut a good amount and place it in the tub and boy did it work it maid lots of bubbles and the smell of sweet toffee was soothing and relaxing. My son took the bubble bath. When he came out his skin was so soft and moisterize almost as if he use lotion he took the bubble bath and he took a shower with a small amount. My nene smells good to. He is so exited he wants to purchase more of this product. Lush product are interesting and they smell amazing. They have skincare products as well as shampoo and conditioner n hair product and bubble products.

Here is the yarn used to make my moms scarf n slouchy hat

Cowl n slouchy hat knitted by me!

Here is a slouchy hat I just finish knitting!

This was a fun hat to make it kept me wanting to finish it Lolz n I did luv it n the colors I might make a cowl or a regular scarf what you guys think? 

My glam look!

This is my glam look when I want to look sex c or when I want to show how well I can get myself together. There are times in life where you forget that you exist. Meaning me. I tend to forget I'm here I also breath. I to deserve to pamper myself.this is my simple look what you guys think? Should I do it more often or not? We as mothers tend to forget about looks style n more. The truth is we need to also take care our self. Live life.