Well here it goes beauty's and friends and fam I am going through a rough path my mom have breast canser. I feel like my world has been turned upside down now. Yes I am crying as I write this because a lot of good things has happen in these past few years. One we and my mom never had a good relationship. She never cared bout me because of what my father had done to her in the past. So I had to pay for it. I never knew what a hug from my mother or a kiss felt like when I was a kid. I always felt like a adopted kid. I mean I couldn't even look at her in the dining table because I would get smack. Yes that's how bad it was, and as I got older we had no respect for each other. We would curse at each other and then some. But to make the story short a few years ago we kinda started to talk and she finally said sorry for what she had done to me as a kid. She then admit it was wrong to treat me in such ways because it was not my fault what my dad had done to her. I get it I look like him, I even smile like him. But it's been a year in half now, and we have gotten so close that we do a lot of things together. We even talk to each other like best friends. We are there for each other. Until the sudden new that we just found out she has breast cancer. Lord knows how much I luv her this is killing me. Now that we have gotten close she might die on me. Wao is all I can say. I've seen many similar stories on breast cancer and they all have a sad ending. The ? I ask myself is why me. Why now that we are happy and have gotten closer things like this happens. All I want to say is I am the only child so I have no one to talk this through and is a situation that is killing me. My mom is my everything to me my friend my mom my partner in crime and then some.this is a sad situation I feel like I am drowning. And I can't get up. She went to surgery and they took out the tumor, but now they saying that it spread all over her breast this is overwhelming me. They said she would be ok. They said she would be on treatment for a couple of years so that the tumor won't come back.but he we go again we receive this letter that states that it has spread and now I feel like I am loosing the one person that gave me life and now that I feel like I have a mother in my life. She might be taken from me. Dame this is hard for me to take. I always had everything while I was growing up with her, but not her luv or compassion or affection because of what my dad did to her. But now that I have it I feel like it's sleeping away. Lord help me this is killing me inside. I feel like I have to let it out because I feel like I am dying inside. I luv my mom more then many think and I will always be there for her through her worst moments as well. Thanks for reading this and I would like to here from you guys .
This is me and my mom Carmen
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