Using the yarn winder they call it cakes Lolz

It is a unique little gajet. And it is not hard to use very simple and convince. The cake balls come in handy. I luv it. I got kinda Cary away and I made a couple more after that Lolz luv it. And it fits in my project bags much more yarn cakes then the usual yarn. Meaning the way it comes when you buy it.

Feeling some type of way!!!!!!

I'm feeling very overwhelmed today to much is going on in such little time. Sometimes I wonder why things have to end up this way but what can you do be strong and hold your head up. 

Well here it goes beauty's and friends and fam I am going through a rough path my mom have breast canser. I feel like my world has been turned upside down now. Yes I am crying as I write this because a lot of good things has happen in these past few years. One we and my mom never had a good relationship. She never cared bout me because of what my father had done to her in the past. So I had to pay for it. I never knew what a hug from my mother or a kiss felt like when I was a kid. I always felt like a adopted kid. I mean I couldn't even look at her in the dining table because I would get smack. Yes that's how bad it was, and as I got older we had no respect for each other. We would curse at each other and then some. But to make the story short a few years ago we kinda started to talk and she finally said sorry for what she had done to me as a kid. She then admit it was wrong to treat me in such ways because it was not my fault what my dad had done to her. I get it I look like him, I even smile like him. But it's been a year in half now, and we have gotten so close that we do a lot of things together. We even talk to each other like best friends. We are there for each other. Until the sudden new that we just found out she has breast cancer. Lord knows how much I luv her this is killing me. Now that we have gotten close she might die on me. Wao is all I can say. I've seen many similar stories on breast cancer and they all have a sad ending. The ? I ask myself is why me. Why now that we are happy and have gotten closer things like this happens. All I want to say is I am the only child so I have no one to talk this through and is a situation that is killing me. My mom is my everything to me my friend my mom my partner in crime and then some.this is a sad situation I feel like I am drowning. And I can't get up. She went to surgery and they took out the tumor, but now they saying that it spread all over her breast this is overwhelming me. They said she would be ok. They said she would be on treatment for a couple of years so that the tumor won't come back.but he we go again we receive this letter that states that it has spread and now I feel like I am loosing the one person that gave me life and now that I feel like I have a mother in my life. She might be taken from me. Dame this is hard for me to take. I always had everything while I was growing up with her, but not her luv or compassion or affection because of what my dad did to her. But now that I have it I feel like it's sleeping away. Lord help me this is killing me inside. I feel like I have to let it out because I feel like I am dying inside. I luv my mom more then many think and I will always be there for her through her worst moments as well. Thanks for reading this and I would like to here from you guys .

This is me and my mom Carmen 

First impression on a lush product name fun what a softy product its limited edition!!!!!

This product smells amazing. It also feels like playdo seriously. It can be use as a shampoo,bubbles and soap. The color is cold with glitter but the glitter those not transfer to your body. We tested this product in the bath meaning I made a video with my son on this product.mainly because he bought it he Luvs the color gold and he Luvs bubbles. I also use a small nice and cut a good amount and place it in the tub and boy did it work it maid lots of bubbles and the smell of sweet toffee was soothing and relaxing. My son took the bubble bath. When he came out his skin was so soft and moisterize almost as if he use lotion he took the bubble bath and he took a shower with a small amount. My nene smells good to. He is so exited he wants to purchase more of this product. Lush product are interesting and they smell amazing. They have skincare products as well as shampoo and conditioner n hair product and bubble products.

Here is the yarn used to make my moms scarf n slouchy hat

Cowl n slouchy hat knitted by me!

Here is a slouchy hat I just finish knitting!

This was a fun hat to make it kept me wanting to finish it Lolz n I did luv it n the colors I might make a cowl or a regular scarf what you guys think? 

My glam look!

This is my glam look when I want to look sex c or when I want to show how well I can get myself together. There are times in life where you forget that you exist. Meaning me. I tend to forget I'm here I also breath. I to deserve to pamper myself.this is my simple look what you guys think? Should I do it more often or not? We as mothers tend to forget about looks style n more. The truth is we need to also take care our self. Live life.

Jennifer lopes

Isn't she beautiful 

This is my son Yavan

God knows how much i miss my son. He is with his father on his week vacation it really seems like hes been gone for years god i cant wait till he comes home this sunday i luv my nene so much that a week is a bit to much for me shish godbless my nene

This is me

Many may read me wrong but its k everyone is entitle give their opinion is a free country but can people really judge me i am as luving as caring as can i also can ignore situations because i am a grown responsible mother and i handle my bussiness but sometimes people take u out ur caracter but i will always b me at the end of the day i care less bcause wat dont make me wont brake.

We have to not care when people critisize you because you know you are better then that and maybe your life is that good that they have nothing better to do. Ill always smile because i can n noone puts me down i have been shining since day one because god is good and he is on my side

Me n my twins

Luv my girls even wen they make go crazy

Knitting baby socks

This is just a little bit of my progress the cuff done on to the leg

Outfit of the day

I luv forever21 luv this store everything here is from forever21 except the gladiator sandals

My mom is wearing jeans i am in a skirt yeah after so many yrs of not wearing it ive been missing out

Knitting dishcloths

Knitting dish cloths has been a obsession seriously like I knit one almost every day. I am a beginner at knitting but I think I'm getting better at it day by day. Here r some dishcloths I've maid. Oh yeah and to make these I use sugar n cream yarn witch is 100% cotton is the best yarn to use and these bad boys r great to use to clean n wash dishes.

A yarn winder

I receive this as gift from someone whom I don't know send it n I've said thank you to my secret sender. 

Now this is a kook little machine you honestly can ball a yarn skein that's big to a ball or should I say cake is the term they use when the yarn is wined here in this machine I luv it it is way better to wine your yarn into a cake and it is easier to carry. This is how it looks.

This is a nike bag I got in V.I.M.

I luv the colors in this bag. It makes me happy just to look at it n it is perfect for this weather. It only cost $20.00.

Dish cloth crochet lazy wave pattern from YouTube

I luv to crochet this is a dish cloth I maid watching a how to video in YouTube.

Outfit of the day!

A dress! Yes I said a dress.

I haven't wore a dress in yrs but I finally wore this one. It is from forever21 this dress is awesome it is comfortable  very soft material. forever 21 has a lot of great options for dresses. I was never comfortable wearing dresses ever now I guess I'm in the fashion street where I want to wear dresses. so I said let me give it a go I have purchased this dress couple weeks ago but never wore, I honestly thought the dress didn't look right but I guess I was wrong. I wore this forever 21 dress with a Levi with some shoes I bought at Denise I think the outfit came out pretty good what do you guys think?.

Today's outfit of the day!

This is casual yet sex c hope you guys like.

what to do when you feel angry or furiouse?

is hard to control certain emotions in life. sometimes we just wake up upset for no aparent reason,and we just yell at others and even say things we dont mean. is hard to even see thing in a possitive way when ur upset. ive been through a lot of changes and my reactions to numerouse things was wrong. i would normally just say wat ever comes to mind. not caring what others felt but wat i felt at that moment. i have even picked a fight with strangers in the street not caring about the outcome. the truth is i grew up in a negative enviroment where to argue seam normal. to pick a fight was normal. the truth is that is not normal at all. not only are you hurting others but you really are hurting yourself. you may not see it in the moment you are lashing out. but later on you will.

what i first did to cope with my anger and any other emotions was to seek help at a therapist and to see a spychiatrist yes and it those not mean you are crazy. it is so you can learn other ways to cope with situations in life. the ? i always ask myself is do they even take their own advice. hmmmmmmmmmmmm i always wonder that. anyways long story short i listen to music when i am upset. i even learn to bite my toungue sometimes. trust me is hard and it is still hard sometimes because i cant hold my toungue but i try sometimes. it is stilll a working progress i soppose. lolzzzzzz. stands for laughing. i also came across crochet and knitting and loom knitting. yes i use to suck at those things but now i have become better at those things. i am also making premy hats to donate to my local hospital. you just have to find something you enjoy doing and put it to use if reading a book works then read pleanty. another thing is learning to communicate with  others is verry important. learning to use words in a possitive way can lead to great things. because wen we lash out nothing good comes out. or if you are in a predicament where it is you and your spouse arguing and you know you are about to say things you dont mean. just say give me a moment please i need to think clear in order to communicate with you.

day by day i thank god for giving me the strengh i need to cope these situations.

I am crocheting a shawl for myself

This shawl ive seen the pattern like 100 time in youtube but never try it then one day i went to my favotite yarn store n i bought this yarn from lion brand yarn store n i finally gave in n started it wat u think isnt the colors gorgs i think so luving it

Loom knitting a big hat for my home attender

This was fun n very easy to make she is luving it lolz

Knitting dish cloth basket weave pattern from ravery

Truth b told i am enjoying knitting more n more purl n knit stitch is becoming to b easy for me now this pattern basket weave is so cute n it works fast

Now im into loom knitting!!!! Its fun!!!!!

I am making premy hats to donate them to the hospital. Those mothers go through a lot with there babies. Some have sopport. But some are less fortunate. They become stress and sometimes feel vunerable because the situations with there babies eigther gets worst or just becomes better.

I am enjoing making these hats for the premies and to bring those moms a little bit of happiness makes me happy.

My twin girls at there appt

They knocked out

Post scrubbies these r gd for dishes

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J84jxmGMV5Y&feature=youtube_gdata_player

Granny sqare scarf for my sister in P.R.

I luv the colors it just worked out amaizing together i luv the way it came out i hope she likes it.